My heart's melody

I've never posted any actual music on here before, but I was just jamming on my ukulele earlier and I liked the melody that was coming out. I thought it pretty accurately captured the state of my heart right now. I feel like every time I've ever tried to write a song, I try so hard to make something clever and structured and good, but today I just want to let it out.

I think I was flowing a bit better before I decided to start recording, so there are a couple of starts and stops in here that are a little jarring (esp in the beginning) and not quite what I intended to play. Nonetheless, this is the general vibe of what I was playing. Maybe some of the ideas in there could turn into an actual song one day, I dunno. For now, I guess enjoy the bittersweet melancholy that I am experiencing.

Implicit Integration

I’m walking through the crowded

Convergent disarray

Each step takes me farther

Yet each step I decay

Nobody really knows me

I hardly know myself

Overdamped emotions

Just like everyone else

But I’m taking away all the uncertainty

And it’s never for free but it’s nothing to me

Is there any other way, is it for me to say

Is it all becoming gray, at the end of the day?

It has gotten so easy choosing to

Assimilate implicitly

And I know that I am losing you

I have lost complexity

I temper all my darkness

Don’t you see me succeed?

Approximated living

Quadratic energy

I try to solve my future

Based on what it could be

Implicit integration

Escape reality

But I’m taking away all the uncertainty

And it’s never for free but it’s nothing to me

Is there any other way, is it for me to say

Is it all becoming gray, at the end of the day?

It has gotten so easy choosing to

Assimilate implicitly

And I know that I am losing you

I have lost complexity

I step towards the sunset

Those moments pass me by

And when you look right through me

I never wonder why